Someone told me that in some days there’ll be rains, but lately it feels like intense hurricanes, it’s storming and that refreshing feeling in the morning has been replaced by a cold and sober feeling that’s always lingering. Pain, the one thing that is universal, everyone can relate to it, it’s just that it comes in different severities and magnitudes and how we deal with it is also the discrepancy that separates us.
What would you prescribe for the pain? What could possibly calm the demons in my head that haunt me with sleepless nights? My emotions run amok. A condition so common yet the cure is elusive. Alcohol can numb it maybe, but briefly, the illusion of a promised glimpse of peace in its partiality at the bottom of each downed bottle, the relief is short lived however as it all comes flooding back with such an overwhelming intensity it could knock your socks off.
Some days I try and take it to the chin but that feeble attempt at bravery is met with excruciating consequences. Pain is like that distant cousin who’s always lingering. Whatever our souls are made of, his and mine are more of the same, they’re intertwined in a sadistic manner. My emotions are not my own to claim, they have been untethered from the onset of my adolescence, I’m a prisoner in my own body.
I cringe at the slightest mention of peace and happiness for they are strangers that visit briefly and disappear leaving me in dismay. It feels as if I’m submerged underwater and the silence down there is peaceful even though I’m drowning, it’s a beautiful pain. At least I’m safely hidden from the demons that await me on the surface, my friends for the longest of time yet they torment me and steal that small amount of peace I yearn for when night falls.
It Passes you By!
But for how long can I keep battling this? They say the beauty of the earth is nice but not ours, will I reminisce and regret when my time expires? Or will I stand tall, pump my chest and confess that I’ve conquered my demons? Time will eventually run out for everyone but it’s up to you to outrun it and live your best life free from agony and dismay.
Time waits for no man! A common phrase that we often take for granted yet it serves a very insightful purpose. We dwell so much on adversity it blinds us from the lost time that we cannot recuperate as it wastes away like waterfalls that plunge into abysmal depths. The spring would not be so pleasant, if winter did not exist, if sometimes we don’t experience the taste of adversity then prosperity would not be so welcome.
Pain will teach you to appreciate the things that don’t hurt, always try to embrace them and not live to regret. Today I pledge that I have a breath of new life, the advent has reckoned and I will continue to face my demons while living in the moment.
“You’ll have bad times, but it’ll always wake you up to the good stuff you weren’t paying attention to.” Sean Maguire.
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